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Hehe, so this girl has found something to amuse herself with: alcohol! Eh, yeah, long story ;)

It’s my birthday today :) I turned 19. Yeah, there’s no DOB on my blog but I was going to upload the “about me” page I wrote some months ago -_-’

There was a birthday party of a friend/old classmate yesterday. My friend promised me to get me drunk. :| Hehe, he would never be able to do that. Besides, I’m not allowed to drink. My parents will kill me if I drink. I’d like some orange juice instead…

- After two hours-

I drunk a little Safari with orange juice. Was good. But it was my first time and my glass was empty in 10 seconds lol. So, his girlfriend gave me some Bacardi with orange juice and then Malibu with orange juice… and then a sip of pure Bacardi and a sip of beer 1 and a sip of beer 2. All in all, 6 or 7 glasses of ’something’ with ’something’. In the end I didn’t even ask what it was in my glass. lol. I got pretty drunk. I think it was a little too much for my first time hehe.

*3 am* it was time to go home again. I couldn’t walk but I could cycle just fine. Which surprised me a little. lol. I wasn’t alone. Someone came with me (A). When I got home my parents were still awake. But I acted like I was normal so they didn’t notice lol (thank god). They will kill me if they found out…

But the thing is: yesterday, I was happy. After weeks/months, for the first time I felt like I wanted to live again. I also understand that alcohol is a bad thing. I also know about it’s consequences. But, it works for me. Better than antidepressants. I know that after a while even this won’t work anymore… but, I can’t worry about tomorrow. Not today. :)

But, I’m not depressive anymore (for now). :)

I’m going to Amsterdam for shopping with my parents tomorrow. xD I got € 250!!! MONEY!

P.S: Yesterday, I wanted to hug everyone :| I still want to hug everyone. The world is good. lol. *HUGGLES HER BLOG BUDDIES*