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Dear blog buddies,

I’m very sorry for being inactive as a blog buddy and friend. It’s not like me to not blog in a while or not read your wonderful stories and comment on them. Anyway, here it comes:

I failed. I failed while I had 80% marks for my exams. I failed my internship. I was practising at the Law Court in my city. I was basically ‘working’ there. Unfortunately, when my internship started in February, my depression started as well. During the same time. (These two things could be linked but I don’t know). Because of my ‘illness’ I functioned not as they expected. I wasn’t being myself. People who instructed me there are all really nice people. They really helped me. But they had to grade my internship too and they had to be a little hard on that. I’ll have to re-do my internship somewhere else. Another 19 weeks… after the summer holidays.

Summer holidays. For me it means a time to reorganize my life. My life is a chaotic chaos at the moment. I failed at school. I won’t be able to enroll in the Media study I wanted to (at least, not before I get my current diploma). I’m depressed. I’m suicidal. Medicines make me more sick than I already am. The psychologists don’t know what to do with me. My parents keep forgiving me.

I need to get out of here for a while.

So… I’m leaving this Tuesday (the 17th) to India. To my relatives there. I’ve lived in India as a child. I don’t remember being depressed in India even once. That country is too colourful. That world is soooo different than the one I currently live in. Perhaps seeing others in misery will make me realise the value of my own comfortable life? What a crybaby I am… I’ll be back on the 25th of July…

So, you guys must be wondering. How was Spain? It was good. It was good to be away from daily life. I took lots of photo’s and here they are:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/enkyori/

I want to change the domain name. I already chose a new one. But first I have to suspend this one and make the new one I ordered the main domain. The new one is: www.cat-unleashed.com/. But something went wrong while paying for it. I contacted the support department. But it could take a while. I hope it will be working on Monday. Otherwise I can only look into it when I’m back in Holland. But of course, being a internet addict, I’ll be in a internet cafe the day I land in India haha.

If my site is offline for a while: fear not! This geek has plans Hey! I’ve prove!
http://cat-unleashed.deviantart.com/

Anyway, all of you, enjoy your holidays and see ya! Nya~! Meow~! Miauw~! Whatever~!